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Saturday, July 16, 2011
I'm TIRED!!!
I'm tired of my family bossing me around, of them thinking "Just because they're older, they're wiser". I'm tired of them thinking that just because I'm younger and more llimber than them means that I do more work. And I'm especially tired of my family telling me things I already know, them not trusting me, getting the wrong ideas about me. That I'm easy, I'm sensitive, I need to be nagged constantly because I'm stupid. I'm tired of it!
I don't know
I don't know where I'm going, I don't know what I'm going to do. I could day just at the moment I'm typing this blog, I could get $1,000,000 right now, but I just don't know. Just because I don't know doesn't mean that I will worry about the uknown, not even the known. I just worry, care, live in the present, what is going on now. I know that for sure.
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Thursday, May 26, 2011
I'm Not Supposed to be Scared, So Why am I?
When i go to the store i'm not supposed to be scared, when i go on a vacation i'm not supposed to be scared. When i go to the movies i'm not supposed to be scared but why am i?
Being scared is normal, but when it occurs so much there has to be a problem. i mean you are so safe, you have your parents, the law, authority, but you get so scared you feel like you and the thing you're scared of are in a 5by 5 foot room, alone.
Am i normal? Am i just some scared little freak that watches out for everything?
i get scared whenever i go out. i guess i get scared because no one is there for me. No one is by my side, its just me and the world free to do what ever we want. but what do i want?
What do i want? Good friends, that feeling of knowing you are not alone ever!
PLEASE READ THIS:
People, know this. You are never alone if you have God. If you are a Christian, BE ONE! Know that HE is there for you, no matter what. HE will take care of you no matter what. Don't be scared, have Faith in GOD.
Being scared is normal, but when it occurs so much there has to be a problem. i mean you are so safe, you have your parents, the law, authority, but you get so scared you feel like you and the thing you're scared of are in a 5by 5 foot room, alone.
Am i normal? Am i just some scared little freak that watches out for everything?
i get scared whenever i go out. i guess i get scared because no one is there for me. No one is by my side, its just me and the world free to do what ever we want. but what do i want?
What do i want? Good friends, that feeling of knowing you are not alone ever!
PLEASE READ THIS:
People, know this. You are never alone if you have God. If you are a Christian, BE ONE! Know that HE is there for you, no matter what. HE will take care of you no matter what. Don't be scared, have Faith in GOD.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
5-17-11
I walk to school everyday, looking all around me. People think, well that's the thing. PEOPLE THINK, and you know what i think? i think about what people think about ME. I constantly get picked on and i think people hate me, no, i know people hate me.
My apologies for not introducing myself correctly, i am Cameron Jones. I go to Riverside Community College Prep (RCCP). i am an outcast. i'm not a nerd but i get treated like one, hell nerds get treated better than me. Every day i fear getting pushed into the lockers by some random JOCK from the football team. i come to school and home with a headache, and i always leave crying. i never did anything wrong to these people, and i know that for a fact. When i came here people immediately put me into a category: LOSER, NERD, OUTCAST!
That's the problem with my generation. They classify people into groups and go by the HOLY LAW OF THE "STATUS QUO". Either you're popular or unpopular, either you cool or a geek. i hate that.
But you know what i do? i pray, seriously, I PRAY. First of all i am a Christian and there is no doubt about that. It is painful, VERY, going to school in fear,but i know God is going to work it out. There is going to be a will, a way. I don't fight back, but i do ball up. I ball up my anger and store it in a sack, and sometimes that sack is ready to explode! That's when i start to pray, then i be "me".
What is "me"? "ME" is artistic, smart, talented; yet others don't see "me". You see i take piano, art, choir, and AP Literature. All of the teachers notice my talent and they always want whats best for me. However it is weird how i am friends with some of the teachers, but i can't help it. You know i was actually awarded best juvenile artist in the state. But you know where that talent comes from? Remember when i said i ball up my anger in the close to exploding sack? Well my talent comes from the anger. Art in general is just my release for bullying, and i have succeeded successfully from it! As a matter of fact, i got a scholarship to Harvard art school, and California school of arts (both colleges). As i said before things are working out for the better through prayer.
PLEASE READ THIS: Thank you for reading this. This story is actually based off of my accounts in life. When i was in elementary school i got bullied hard. it went on for 3 school years! i wanted to kill myself and i felt hopeless. But then my mom reminded me to pray and to let God, and let Go. Listen, if you are a Christian, and you go to school (which you should be), and are constantly bullied just remember, you aren't a Christian for nothing. You can't just literally sit on the couch or something waiting for God to come, or until you die. God can and will get you through this life if you have faith and pray. Don't loose all hope in God just because a parent died. Trust HIM, you can do it.
My apologies for not introducing myself correctly, i am Cameron Jones. I go to Riverside Community College Prep (RCCP). i am an outcast. i'm not a nerd but i get treated like one, hell nerds get treated better than me. Every day i fear getting pushed into the lockers by some random JOCK from the football team. i come to school and home with a headache, and i always leave crying. i never did anything wrong to these people, and i know that for a fact. When i came here people immediately put me into a category: LOSER, NERD, OUTCAST!
That's the problem with my generation. They classify people into groups and go by the HOLY LAW OF THE "STATUS QUO". Either you're popular or unpopular, either you cool or a geek. i hate that.
But you know what i do? i pray, seriously, I PRAY. First of all i am a Christian and there is no doubt about that. It is painful, VERY, going to school in fear,but i know God is going to work it out. There is going to be a will, a way. I don't fight back, but i do ball up. I ball up my anger and store it in a sack, and sometimes that sack is ready to explode! That's when i start to pray, then i be "me".
What is "me"? "ME" is artistic, smart, talented; yet others don't see "me". You see i take piano, art, choir, and AP Literature. All of the teachers notice my talent and they always want whats best for me. However it is weird how i am friends with some of the teachers, but i can't help it. You know i was actually awarded best juvenile artist in the state. But you know where that talent comes from? Remember when i said i ball up my anger in the close to exploding sack? Well my talent comes from the anger. Art in general is just my release for bullying, and i have succeeded successfully from it! As a matter of fact, i got a scholarship to Harvard art school, and California school of arts (both colleges). As i said before things are working out for the better through prayer.
PLEASE READ THIS: Thank you for reading this. This story is actually based off of my accounts in life. When i was in elementary school i got bullied hard. it went on for 3 school years! i wanted to kill myself and i felt hopeless. But then my mom reminded me to pray and to let God, and let Go. Listen, if you are a Christian, and you go to school (which you should be), and are constantly bullied just remember, you aren't a Christian for nothing. You can't just literally sit on the couch or something waiting for God to come, or until you die. God can and will get you through this life if you have faith and pray. Don't loose all hope in God just because a parent died. Trust HIM, you can do it.
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